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All My Confusion He
Understood -- by Kathy Boncher I was in my early twenties,
married with two young daughters. My husband was making a good
income and I lived in a beautiful house. I had everything a woman
could ask for, but yet there was an emptiness in my life. This void
in my heart led me to fill it with other things like material
possessions, drinking, partying and the like. But nothing seemed to
satisfy me for very long, so I looked for other ways to bring me
fulfillment. One evening, as I was on my way to meet a few friends
for a “girl’s night out” at a local bar, I thought to myself, “If
there’s a heaven and a hell, I’m going to hell.” But I blocked this
thought out of my mind and went on my merry way. I knew that I was a
sinner, but I didn’t know the remedy for it. Religion only brought
guilt, so I had stopped going to church a few years before, and my
heart was hard to spiritual things.
My mother and father were very good parents and church-going
Catholics, but they never discussed God with me or my siblings. But
on Valentines Day in 1974 something happened to change their lives
forever. They received Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior.
Dad talked to me about Jesus and how God had healed him of arthritis
and delivered him from smoking. I was 24 years old and I had never
before heard my father talk about God like this. I knew something
happened to change him and I noticed that he didn’t have the same
bad temper as he did before. When he told me it was Jesus, I was
very skeptical because I didn’t want anything to do with religion. I
had gone to church my whole life and I hated it...it was just too
boring. My parents kept asking me to go to this new church with them
where they received Jesus, so finally I relented just to get them
off my back, and I agreed to go.
On April 11, 1974, I attended a Thursday night interdenominational
service with my parents. Everyone there seemed so happy, and the
singing was so upbeat that I even joined in. The pastor gave a
message about how we could know Jesus as our Lord and Savior. This
Jesus he described sounded so different from the one I was taught
about as a little girl. I remember thinking to myself how confused I
was, and that I didn’t understand any of this. Then the pastor asked
everyone to stand, and they started singing a song that went like
this:
“Something beautiful, something good, all my confusion He
understood. All I had to offer Him was brokenness and strife, but He
made something beautiful out of my life.”
It was as if God had just read my mind and said, “I know you are
confused, and I understand.” It was at that moment that I realized
God was someone real and not someone so very far away. He truly
cared about me and He knew my every thought. At the end of the song,
while everyone was still standing, the pastor asked that if there
was anyone who wanted to know this Jesus they were talking about,
they should remain standing while everyone else sat down. I did want
to know this God who could read my mind. I tried everything else to
make me happy and nothing worked, so maybe this was the answer. I
stood there with shaking knees and trembling body, afraid to move
while everyone, except 2 or 3, were seated. At that point of
surrender, I felt an enormous weight of sin lift from my shoulders.
Every emotion seemed to surface as I wept uncontrollably in
repentance. I felt like my tears were washing away my many sins. I
cried for almost an hour, but I knew I was being completely cleansed
and forgiven.
That was the beginning of my new life in Christ, the day Jesus came
in to take up residence in my heart. I became a new person that day.
My sinful ways and thinking were replaced with a desire to love and
obey God. That didn’t mean I became perfect and sinless, but it
meant I had a new heart to want to love and obey God. He has filled
me with peace and satisfied me all these years.
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things
have passed away; behold, all things have become new.” (2 Cor 5:17
NKJV)
Since that time God has done wondrous things in my life, including
baptizing me in His Holy Spirit, healing me from a prescription drug
addiction, instantaneous deliverance from smoking, healing from an
eating disorder, and many, many other works of God. Today I’m more
in love with Jesus than ever before. Receiving the gift of salvation
through Jesus Christ was the best and most important decision I have
ever made, and I give Him praise and glory for making something
beautiful out of my life.
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